UPDATE FALL 2011

I have come a long way since the last time I have updated this blog... on both a personal and professional stand point. I have learned that not everything comes easy, even friendships that are formed; it sometimes may take 2 yrs, but if its meant to happen, its meant to be... I look deep into a lot of things bc I am a sensitive person and I rly do believe that things happen for a reason and people meet for a reason. Everyone is on a path in life and the people you meet on your journey are there to guide you in the right direction and bring you happiness; I truly believe that.

Its so hard to go through life and like someone for so long, and you cant do anything about it. The only thing that can be done is if that person likes you back in return. I have not yet reached a moment where I have truly felt mutally loved... Relationships come and go, but I have yet to meet the person that fits and be in that moment when I am truly happy. Everything I do now is a void; triathlon is my savor, if I havent found this, I don't know where I would be. It distracts me for what I have been searching for my entire life and want so bad, I want love; real love.

I consider myself truly rare, not only as a friend, but as a person. As serious as I may sound with IM training, I am a multitude of things, and have a multitude of interests. I am not one of those with one interest, you can find me doing almost anything outdoors, yet kicking back and drinking while having a deep convo. I rly do appreciatte the little things in life that not many do, going back to my friends example with picking a pumpkin from the stem. All of this sounds so silly, yet so serious and thats how I am, I just wish people understand me more and give me a chance.

If I really like someone, I will give them my all, and wont have a care in the world bc nothing else matters. I have changed so many people in my life in the past, and currently in the present. It is amazing what I have the capacity to do, to change someones entire lifestyle and outlook, and have a yearning to help for over a yr. When I look back on all this yrs from now, I can smile and think that because I changed that persons life and they are happier, I became happier. The moment you stop looking is when the people you seek, come to you.

I never used to be a writer and I became one, I enjoy voiceing my opinion and writing out my thoughts. I have been training for an Ironman since June and HARDcore training since August...I have my HEART set on going to Kona nxt yr and qualifying for the Ironman World Championship. I RLY hope I do!! I also hope that I can get friends to come w me to my travels nxt yr, as for real this will be my last yr on the East coast for 2012 and when I start Grad school in fall 2013 its going to take over my life. So take advantage of coming w me now--- SAN JUAN, NH 2X, CALIFORNIA, BRAZIL, HAWAII??

5 weeks left to train, 5 weeks! 2 more open water swims, 3 more 3+ hr runs, and 4 more 100+ rides to go! Cant wait to run the halloween 5k w S+M + celebrate what I have been trying to accomplish for the longest time and see that anything is possible.