April 2011

April 2011 is finally here, and it is surely a month of pure craziness for me in every perspective. I just passed my 25th bday, and it is weird to think that now I am 25. I need to get the F out of my house!!

Talking about racing 1st:

After I trained my ASS off lit in the SBR I Oceanside didnt go as I planned at all...
I did not think NOR was I even close to ready dealing with the hills :cough: mountains that San Diego had... It was rediculous, most likely the hardest hills EVER. Half of the people I was with started walking there bikes up! It was INSANE. I was pacing for a 250/3 flat up until mile 40, I was screwed, the combination btw the wind and hills took SO much time off my pace its not even funny, plus I had a sucky swim, bottom line, I CAN NOT SWIM W A WETSUIT!!

Proof, I PRed in Cancun w 37 FINALLY breakin 40 mins (I kno I am a slow swimmer) without my wetsuit.... grrrr! What I am lookin fwd to is the warm st criox weather which will be a non wetsuit swim, a muscle pliable bike, and a HARD run such as feeling dizzy/overheated but I will still try my best to toughen it out!

I experienced the weirdest thing in OCeanside in regards to the run; I think mentally I felt lik crap since BOTH my swim and ride was WAY WAY off, I felt another Clearwater coming on :/ xcept this time, I could ACTUALLY move my legs on the bike unlike clearwater, I just couldnt attack the climbs for shittt!

So I felt both the heaviness right away and the mental anguwish of WTF did I just train for all these weeks through the blood and tears and I am performing like crap?! So the 1st half of the half marathon was crazy slow and for a while I was questioning if I was gonna finish, I felt nasiated and help jumpin in every portijohn that I saw... which ultimately prob added a good 10 mins onto my total time... then suddently, it was as if an angel landed on my shoulders the 2nd lap, it told me to GO! just go, and suddenly my legs felt like they were ripped off and given this fresh pair... I went from a 9 something pace to a sub 8 for the last 6 miles, trying by that point (I kno super slow and WAYYY beneath the level I should be at with my training and 7 yrs in sport) a 6 flat... But ended up just missing six flat and finished in a time of 604...

But Hey, I came in 18/50 in the 1st time I raced a half in the 25-29 ag AND most of all, the strongest EVER I have felt in the last Half of a half marathon, I was FLYIN, and I truly believe I was experiencing the "flow" or "runners high" at that point in time... Every step seemed effortless and my breathing was in a pattern... and I just kept pushing.. I was running SO fast that in the last 200 meter stretch I was sprinting so hard, that I friggin twisted my ankle bad, but thanks to my hyperflex joints I recovered and just missed 17th pl when this girl in the same AG clipped me at the finish. When I finished I was so overwhelmed from pushing myself THAT hard the final 6 miles, I passed out.. and had to be brought to the Medtent. But I was given gatoraded and was fine, I totally collapsed, I even have to check if I still have the 'finishers medal' bc I havent seen it all week :o

SO that bas sums up OS, I am SOOO glad I have waited all these yrs to conquer that course bc it is a friggin BITCH to do esp the bike. If the bike was flat this course would be FAST... and it sux bc I am a speedy cyclist in short couses, but a horrible climber mostly bc I just avoid hill training....

I am looking fwd to the BX biathlon nxt wkd which I raced in last yr in the pouring rain, prob the coldest to date I have felt in a biathlon race, I remember being in transition not able to undo my helmet or tie my shoes lol... and missing 2nd pl f OA bc of that reason!

WEll, not this yr, my goal is to Break the tape bitchesssss! We shall see, if Lynn races, I am gonna take 2nd pl, if she doesnt thats what Im set at, unlike central park both the ride/run is super flat/fast so I am super pumped to attack this race! Which will def give me a shit load of confiedence for st criox 2 weeks later...

Tmr I am going on my 1st "upstate" ride since last yr, mostly bc I need to conquer the hills and find my way into harriman for once lol... Im gonna write down the exact sts I need to look for.... I just know if I stay on 17 which is like a hway I am either due ot get hit or get a tire due to glass on the road... So I will stick w my norm route....

I may only do this ride once, as nxt sat im off ex wise other than a light swim/run bc of the bx biathlon being the nxt day.... and the followin wkd if the weather hits 70' and no rain, tryin to convince steph to take a road trip w me... if that doesnt pan out which I hope it will, I will prob ride on 9W or repeat the ride 1 more time.. but I rly think Im gonna take a shot of riding on 9w :D :D Easter Sat or Sunday... as I come back from socal on sat morn easter sat so im not sure how up to feeling on a long ride im gonna be....

I rly want to go to niagara falls w steph as its very beautiful there and we both havent been there, or maybe lake george or some place that we both havent been to... I just hope if it doesnt work out, Im not too tired for a long drive after coming off yet another red eye flight....

I am rly xcited to see Brooke, I wonder if I didnt write "the letter" if I woulda gotten to see her on that Sunday or not... it makes me sad that it is THAT difficult to see her thanks to Denise, but hopefully the letter that I just wrote 3-4 months later will clear things up btw us....again.....

I dont care how many pp thing its that stupid to come back out to california again, but I am doin it for Brooke, the only person that has looked up to me so closely and that I have had the funniest moments with and the most fun with as if she was my little sister. I know for a fact that if it wasnt for me, she wouldnt of ran track, and she wouldnt of discovered her talent. I have fig out a way that even though I am still in debt, I only charged the amt in which I am going to be paid... and it worked out good as the paycheck i just got is for another 2 wks when I go away again, and when I get paid on the 22nd, that is for st criox lol....

I might go to pittsburgh to see the "luminarim" right after the Adele concert in Phili on Fri May 13th yea out of all the dates right and drive in the middle of the night then crash at a cheap hotel... but idk yet...

May is DEF concert month, I am seeing Kylie, Bruno, Adele, and maybe Chicago... I am not going ANYWHERE MD wkd, but instead want to go to Yosmite on a camping/backpacking trip 4th of July wkd.... hmmm

I gotta follow up w ECC as I rly do still want to go back to school this fall and dont want to miss any deadlines in the process of applying/signing up for the stupid addmissions test... I cant wait to be a physical theapist assistant, then when I complete the program by 2013 I can move out to California and live happily ever after, and hopefully with the person of my dreams who feels the same way about me <3
Speaking of which, whats on my mind now, are girls who say they are straight like my past friend sammie who suddenly fell in love with another girl, love holds no boundries.....