Update

A lot on my plate right now....

Traveling 3x in April is gonna be a lot, esp alone and not w any friends splitting anything, totally independent, not a shocker bc most of the time I do travel alone mostly bc I rly cant depend on anyone....

Im stressed bc I am still tired from Sunday and have to get up early to teach nxt 2 days before I leave, then fly home nxt wkd on a red eye, only to work non-stop all nxt week until Fri when I get my wisdom tooth pulled and be in even more pain on the wkd which is prob one of the first where its actually gonna be nice here... Speaking of Sun in a more positive blog, I raced the Central Park Biathlon w Tao Tri for the 1st time and my 3rd time doing this race. The hill of central park often KILL me, but ever since the greatness of my racing season last yr, I have found new ways to push myself so I dont have more painful regrets after the race that I have had oh so many yrs.... I placed 3rd Female Overall, with the ability of coming in 2nd if my friggin T1 wasnt as long! The main issue was gettin my bike out of transition which was perhaps racked in the worst spot! It made the race into 1 big obstacle course... speaking of obstacle course, gonna see if I can convince Seana to take my final class I am teaching at 30H wens thank the LORD as no one has taken it! tear... I just have to have the right approach of askin since appearently I am banned from txt/sending any personal emails to perhaps ANYONE at gs. Thanks guys! U all make me feel loved!
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Which then ties into my dissapoints of being upset w people at work, people who I thought were my friend arent, people who I wanted to be friends with dont want to be my friend and people who pretended to be my friend werent. u kno who u are ahem... Just know that everyday my heart hurts at work and now I cant even be myself bc I feel like no one wants any relation to me but 'hi' and 'bye' if that if any... but you know what, its all good!

Then this Sunday on top of it all, was trying to meet up with Brooke and things always get screwed up bc Denise never wants her to see me....I guess I should feel privledged that I did get the op to actually stay over the throne. I wish we can see Ellie Goulding after Brookes meet in LA and I would drive, me, Brooke and Catherine that would be so much fun as neither B or C have EVER been to a concert. esp w the knocks, spphhhhh they would be blown away!

I am stressed bc I have no pump and I dont want to bring co2 on plane and I also have to fig out how the hell I am going to put MOST of my bike together on my own...

Thurs is all about SD, dont want to go crazy exploring, just do sunny jim cave + torry pines, dont want to get my ass lost, its gonna be so beautiful out. Thanks to all those who rly want to see me... NOT!

I DO NOT enjoy doing this alone, I wish I have a bff or a companion to do this w bc it gets very lonely!! I RLY hope I have my best Half yet mostly bc I feel like I have trained harder then EVERRR for this moment on sat. I have now entered the 5 weeks of insanity, lets just hope I make it out a better, faster, stronger, and happier person with sponsors/kona/ and a 2nd job lined up... until then nxt update after oceanside!