Bike Road Race+Tight Packs+Drafting+Rain+COLD=Crash

OK, I have been dying to do a bike road race for some type now... but its kinda dumb to do 1 with NO outside training, NO training in packs, and in the freezing rain. I would usually suck it up, but its soooo not worth a crash, esp with the ONLY bike I have, my road bike with acts as my training bike and my racing bike for the last SIX years because me or my parents can't afford a racing bike. Its sad, I would rather spend my money on races, then spend it on a bike and not race. Some people don't realize how good they have it! NO IDEA.....

Anyway, I decided to merge some more similar races together so it becomes the progression of the 2 biathlons to finish up Q1, then my Half marathon, and another couple biathlons for Q2, for Q3, I get into the sprint tris, Q4 will be my first half IM in 2 yrs and and my fav tri of the yr the metroman, Q5 will be my 2nd Half IM and then Santa Barb. Q5 is cruital from a money perspective and training esp since I LOVE ca. Q6 is the grand finale, Cancun + Clearwater. and throwin in a local boardwalk Grand Prix 5k.

2010 is the yr of the C.C. CANCUN.CLEARWATER werq

I am glad bc of my money situation as of now, I am not being lik an idiot and traveling all around lik I used to seeing madonna or offer. I mean enough is enough, I hate getting submerged in these clicks of people where they are obsessed w only 1 thing or 1 person and thats our only commonality. Only I think to myself that even though I am an obsessive person, I can break out of it because I have a spectrum of interests, other people can't. Enough of those people...

Anyways, I wish the RR was tmr instead bc the nxt few days are gonna be as high as 60' which is amazing for East Coast weather in March. But come Thurs, temp drops and Rain all thro nxt wkd... But Hey Im lookin at a week away, but my training just isn't there for a RR and want to avoid a crash as much as I can. So I will have lost anothe r$25 bux I dont have suxx major ass
BUT I was going down the shore anyways to celebrate Venus bday nxt Sat, and then I hear Tony Moran is playin ALL night in phili, so wtf, Im so going!!!

Then the nxt day, I see Marina + The Diamond Finally in Brooklyn w Venus again.! Hope I can bring another friend w me as well since shes bringing her new gf. Sometimes I wonder when I will ever meet my special someone and why its so difficult for me to do so. I mean I kno I can be an outthere, outgoing person, but still, this is rediculous, not complaining now bc I sure as hell dont want a relationship when I live at home, unless of course the other person lives on their own :)

But I cant do long distance and I need to find something thats mutual... I guess they say when u stop looking it comes...